It's coming, it's ending

It didn't reach me till today that I realize everything is going to end. High school that is. Teachers were like saying their last words to us [as in all the best in the future ahead, don't copy in exam, etc] Usually I wouldn't even bother hearing it. But today, I actually listen. I could feel the loneliness (if you get what I mean) along with the cold wind. And it hits me out of a sudden - this is goodbye for good =P Guess what, my finger is bleeding. why ? Cause I put my mechinical pencil inside my pocket. When I wanted to grab it, my finger was poked with the lead and it went right in. When I took my hand out - it started to bleed already. You know how painful was that. And blood wouldn't stop coming out. ouuuuch ! =(

Ching cut her hair today. OMg she looks like ka-yee now and I keep calling ka-yee as cheok whole day. Chelle and Kelly brought their cameras today and we took A LOT of photos . Can't wait to see them. I actually feel kinda down since it's like goodbye photos - it's kinda sad you know . =( I wish I never took them . It never happen . It never end. It's just not yet the time !

Friends - what can you do without them =)
We were posing at the japenese garden
and we didn't even know if the camera took the photo or not =="

Today I had a conversation with Mel. I guess I just needed to let go. It's no point doing non-stop add maths and keep everything inside your heart. And may & ka-yee was way not intrested in these kind of situation (ahem). Somehow the person I let out was my old time buddy mel. It was painful and sad to let out knowing "hey this is real , and just accept & face it" We both felt sober for each other's situation . Suddenly I felt unneeded

JUST LIKE THAT ....

It's like you're writing a story. Out of a sudden - the ending came.The main character died. Last episode- the end. And you were still holding your pen ..shows over. no sequel. bad ratings. bad critics. close case ! and the only u thing u can say is whaaaaaaaaaat ?

Today we received back our last and final school magazine. This time with our senior page. Senior page , come-on at least a nicer name .. senior ==" Seriously, I still think my class had the best senior page. Call me cocky , call me arrogant - I'll say it again in your face XD And I remember taking photos with the camera. Most of the photos were snap by me. The group ones. OMg, how tiring it was to direct them. To get them in place. And how the malay boys were so vain that the wanna appear in every photo. Wen yah had to say : hey get out, this is only for girls. hehe Then I would be saying You go here . you smile . you must stand up. you move closer. You must move there to be in the photo. Like some photography director or a snobbish assistant monitor. I kinda miss those times already. =( I would say the process of taking photo together , it's the process we have together that means a lot. And the photo is just a result of a memory that when we look back - those were days . We remember back the process. That's why I love taking photos .

There was this part in the mag, about what u think about the opposite sides. And ching's one was like "Men make good accessories " Omg, how can I ever forget you ching. You're just one of kind . Then I saw this part written by Joe and JJ. I was like "It's like turning your back and throwing a peanut" lol (ahem) According to an International survey, we're all the same ==" Owh well, there's just always a battle again the opposite side. In my opinion, no matter how much we hate it - life is pretty meaningless without the other sex. Imagine no girls in the world or no guys in the world. Could you live that ?

If you're feeling what I do right now,
I think this song would suit your mood
I dedicate this to YOU !

I think tonight I'm gonna watch stairway to heaven
We flood the whole place with tears ..
(cause it's a super sad show that the girl died in the very end)
anyone wanna join ?
Cause right now , everything just coming in and ending soon
Could u feel it ?

Michael Buble - Home

Music Code provided by Song2Play.Com

Signing out,
SY,
This was not your dream .......